Too often are we making the mistakes that propel us right into heartbreak, and I’d love for you guys to stay happy, positive, and respectful of yourselves! You’re all beautiful, and if YOU don’t believe it, no one else will. So here’s a tip for now:

Never let a guy make you feel bad about yourself. If you’re allowing a guy (or any friends, rumors, drama, etc) to determine who you are, your self worth, how you feel, and how you look, then honestly, you should take a reality check. Most likely, young girls are insecure and look to guys to fill that void that they are missing. However, this is not the way to do it!

It isn’t a guys job to make you happy! You don’t get into a relationship to make you feel better about yourself! A relationship should compliment the beautiful, mature, respectful person that you ALREADY are, and too many of us are failing to realize this.

YOU must first master self love before any relationship can be happy and healthy! So think about that. If you’re saying you “feel ugly” or “feel worthless” because of a breakup, a guy doesn't like you, a guy is talking to his ex. Then perhaps this is a red flag that you need to take a look within yourself.

A relationship is a place that you go in order to give, not to take. I want to move someplace new. When I’m older, I’m not going to live where I live now. I want to get away & find a new place. A new place to start over, with no bullshit. A new place where my past mistakes won’t come back at me anymore. I’d get away from all the people I regret ever meeting. & I’d get away from my mistakes. I’d start completely new. This is for the girls who have the tendency to stay up all night listening to music that reminds them of their current situation. Who hide their fears, hurt, pain and tears under their smiles and laughs all on a daily basis. The girls who wear their hearts on their sleeve. The girls who pray things will work out just once and they’ll be satisfied. The girls who scream and cry into their pillows because the rest of the world fails to listen. The girls who have it hard but don’t let anyone know that. The girls who may never have it easy. The girls who have so many secrets but will never tell a soul. The girls who have regrets and mistakes as a daily moral. The girls who don’t always win, who may never win. The girls who stay up all night thinking about that one boy wondering if he’ll ever notice her. The girls who get what they get and don’t throw a fit. The girls who take life as it comes, hoping it’ll get easier somewhere down the road. The girls who love with all their hearts but always get broken. This is for the real girls. This is for you. In order to understand her now, you must learn about her past and understand that first because her past is what made her who she is now, maybe she’s been hurt so much it’s hard for her to trust so she puts these walls up around her and barricades her heart, she’s afraid that just maybe that if she opens up again that she will end up hurt again and she doesn’t want to go through that phase again. With that being said you have to listen to what she says, get to know what her mind is like, her thoughts are a representation of her feelings. You have to get to know her for who she is and always be honest with her so you can slowly build this trusting relationship with her. Don’t be the guy that doesn’t understand his girlfriend and the way she acts, because you never took the time to learn and understand her past, you know? So.. You finally decided to text me up. You tell me you are so sorry, again. Then, you tell me that you wanna to start over, again. When I explain to you that I've moved on and I met someone new, you try to disconnect but keep coming back to me all day.

Why must I be so nice to let you back into my life even for just a second? Bcoz now, we are arguing. We always argue before we completely stop talking. I was reminded of why I can't even stand you but then, I was reminded of why I've always wanted to stay. Then, I remembered I'm already taken. I can't do this to him. It's wrong for you to expect me to choose you over him. And for you to even tell me that it's an easy decision? Oh please bro. I'm sorry, try being in my shoes for once before you say things like that.

I want to make the right decision when it comes to choosing between him and you. I shouldn't even be given this option. It is ovbious what I should do. But due to my heart, I consider all options and feelings from everyone. I think three fucking steps ahead and how it could possibly end and then, I think about myself again.

Seriously, I feel horrible that I'm even thinking about this and he doesn't even know. But what is there to tell when you keep telling me to forget it and just stay with him and then you come back to me moments later? Why can't you respect my stance and back the hell off? Why couldn't you have come earlier? Surely, this isn't all about fate, is it?

It's obvious that I deserve better than you, which is why I am with him. Then why am I still thinking about it? I almost wish you never came back into my life. I wish I had the strength to straight up tell you that I choose him and I will. One day, you'll no longer in my life.

I chose him bcoz he knows what I want and what I need. He understands me. Yes, we do argue but not that often. I actually enjoyed arguing with him bcoz of silly things. Life's mine, I can choose who to be and who will be no longer be in my life. Now, I shall say, Hi to my New Love. Well, there is a big diff between not being Able to be able and not Wanting to be alone.

Not wanting to be alone is what I've mostly had to face it. It means, I'm completely capable of being on my own, emotionally speaking I've been on my own plenty of times in my life. Considering the excessive amount of times I've shut down or shut everyone out I've been alone emotionally often. Physically speaking I don’t want to be alone. I can be completely, emotionally speaking, unavailable where you will not get a serious conversation out of me nomatter how hard you try but I'm able to be there around the person or multiple people for hours, even days. Having somebody in the same room as me, even if its completely silent, lets all of my thoughts focus on them. What they’re thinking, how they’re feeling, what they’re hiding, their past, their real emotions, etc. When I’m not alone I’m able to focus on everything but myself which is my goal most of the time, to avoid facing my personal demons. I don’t want ot be alone out of fear of meeting my demise.

Not being able to be alone.. This is more common with people who are bordeline suicide. However, most people either do not know they are like this or choose not to let others know they're like this. Not being able to be alone mean literally you have break downs when somebody isn't around you. As soon as that last person leaves you, you're ready to kill yourself, cut yourself, whatever, that's fucking stupid as fuck! Even if they are coming back in the next couple of hours. This version is not particulary shown in the physical case, but usually emotional. This is more of when people need to be reassured constantly that somebody, anybody is there on call, always. Physically speaking it is shown when somebody just always is with someone else.

The second case does not apply to everyone. SOme people really are just extremely sociable. They are always wanted around so they just give in. Neither is healthy. Both is depending on others to provide something that should be self-sufficient. You shouldn't need others around. Having others around is always nice but everyone needs alone time. That is usually when you are able to hear your deepest thoughts that need to be heard but are said in a whisper. Those thoughts aren't always positive, which in my case is why I don't like the quiet or being alone.

The major diff is the two is one is in a way an option. Eg, tonight, I'm choosing to be alone. I don't want to be but I am. I could easily call someone up and have them come over heere, pick me go out and yeah. But instead, I'm just going to watch movies and tine out the inevitable on my own. Depend on myself and no one else. The ones that can't be alone are the ones who usually shouldn't be alone. Those are the one who should seek professional help, in my opinion.. That was once me also but I got better through my own personal counselor, God, Jesus, and the rest of the homies.

Try to educate or justify what all goes on and the diff type of people. I say all the time things get better, which they do with time. It might have taken me years but I evolved from not being Able to be Alone without having suicidal thoughts to just pretending not to be.

Everything is a struggle.. But its up to you to be defeated.



I hope that I could forget the past and move on as fast as I could.
Dear Jesus, take my life and make me forget the past and move on to a new life. Take my life, Jesus... You know what’s messed up?

- How someone can just decide to stop talking to you all of a sudden.
- How someone can just stop replying to your text messages & phone calls when ya’ll talked not too long ago.
- How someone can just have time to talk to other people but not you, anymore.
- How someone can start ”talking” to someone else when you’re thinking ”We’re gonna be official, soon”.


Silent Rejection, kills.
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